Monday, August 2, 2010

Guitar P.I.C - Performance, Improvisation and Composition

I was really enjoying brainstorming some ideas tonight for a talk on Mahler that I am going to give to some Year 12 Music 2 students (Music advanced or Music extension, something equivalent to that). Here I was writing about ways I could motivate others to immerse themselves in music and how important it is to just create something or anything without trying to be good, when I realised that I had been slacking off on my own composing. I have been stuck at home all week with a fairly severe head cold, so I haven’t really felt up to it for a while.

I recorded myself singing and playing guitar for 40 mins tonight through the inbuilt mic on my laptop. I started off just trying to improvise for the duration with little hope of striking gold. A few minutes into my announcement of whatever sub-lyric idea I had over the same old chord patterns, I felt the self-loathing coming on; however, I quickly reminded myself that I was just warming up and that improvisation is a continual process of practicing and reviewing (hence, the recording).

I don’t think that I came out with anything particularly substantial, but this cannot be decided until I’ve listened back to the recording. It was a really excellent experience though, and I actually had a lot of affirmations about things that were not entirely related to music while I was sitting there singing and playing. I’m pretty sure I managed to capture some of these thoughts because I sang them. Thinking about this process now makes me really look forward to entering this state again. I will become better at describing it, as I practice it more often.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Jupiter, the Bringer of Jollity

This evening I read an old friend's facebook status update that simply said "Jupiter". In a flurry of excitement, I opened up my planetarium software to see if it was in fact visible from my location and found that it was quite low in the eastern sky. I felt compelled to walk to the beach and look at it, even though this meant I would have to avoid plans to do some composing in Pro Tools and more exercises in Scales, Intervals, Keys, Triads, Rhythm and Meter.

I walked out into the cold winter air and noticed that I could actually see Jupiter from my house. I decided to keep going, as I'd already resolved to go the whole distance and as soon as I started walking down the road I noticed that my state of mind changed. That feeling of fascination and inspiration that comes from standing by the ocean at night and under a clear sky was activated instantly, and triggered all sorts of memories and emotions of times I had felt it before. Even though I was alone on this walk, I had the company of multiple imagined visions of myself in my home town at all different stages of my life.

I took my phone with me for the walk and pulled it out several times to record some vocal improvisations of words and melodies. After the first one I did, I listened to it and noticed that my attention started to shift from the customary appraisal of the recording's worth to a simple appreciation of having the ability to do these things.

I returned home and had a listen to the piano I recorded into Reason a couple of weeks ago. It inspired me to get more familiar with the key that I was working with and try out some chords, but I spent most of the time just adding comments to the ideas I liked for future reference. While there is a temptation to dedicate some time to collating every idea that I've ever recorded to make sure they're all easily accessible, I am wary of overcompensating by trying to organise everything and not placing enough trust in the more productive, spontaneous part of my mind.

Monday, July 19, 2010

New direction for the critical self

The more I look back over last week and recall conversations with people, the more I notice how much more productive and expansive I have become from changing my approach to composing. To become a master composer is my dream, and I am now free to just enjoy learning as I practice being creative daily. I have no obligations when it comes to composing and I can just experiment and continue finding new and exciting ways to use my time effectively.

At the end of last week I spent my train rides to and from work doing two things. The first was listening to the keyboard ideas that I recorded and making note of the parts that I liked. In that 40 min recording I heard many ideas that I can take and start crafting a composition out of. I look forward to this process, because I know that when I listen again I'll experience the creative energy I need to decide how the ideas fit together.

The second thing was writing lyrics! Yes, the dreaded lyrics. I know this is a frustration for a lot of composers in music of many styles and the most important thing I can tell you right now is that you don't have to be good at writing lyrics. Just write. Chances are you are already a lot better than most of the lyric writers putting their stuff out there. I can say this because I believe that if you are so critical of yourself that you fear writing lyrics and worry about embarrassment, then you probably know what makes good lyrics and have the potential to create them yourself.

There are many strategies and techniques out there to help you become a master lyricist and in the near future I will be starting to put my own ideas into an actual music coaching package. For now, I will just share the success I've been having with my writing during the train rides. What I did was just write a stream of couplets with no structure or pre-conceived idea for 40 mins. I wasn't trying to write amazing lyrics, I was just practicing and having fun, noticing how I think, how I think I think and noticing words and rhymes.

I'm just having a look over these lyrics now and I think it will be fun to share some of them with you. Notice the inner experience that this stream of couplets creates within you. Does it sometimes seem like you're reading about me and sometimes seem like you're reading about yourself? Remember that this is not a finished piece of work, it is just an exercise in becoming more confident with lyric writing. Try to imagine how you might take some of these themes and create a piece out of them. Could some of the lines be moved around to create a more consistent and powerful verse? Could some others be removed altogether?

There are ways you could try
To feel and act more alive
You might think that you've grown
But you're still on your own
You can block out the noise
And never use your own voice
All those drugs cause you pain
Yet you won't choose to refrain
Now you want people to meet
The true you that's unseen
And you've bought all the tools
And unlearned all the rules
You've prepared all the questions
And absorbed the suggestions
You're perturbed by your thoughts
While other people just talk
You wish you were bolder
And waited til you were older
How your unconscious goes
Towards what you want to disclose
You were taught dreams mean nothing
Just cause sometimes they're frightening
But you know they felt real
And it's important to feel
Put down your magazine
And turn away from the screen
The most beautiful people
Are the ones that can see you
You think you ain't racist
But do you hold the same gazes?
We all want the lunch special
But we're always too careful
And I always get sidetracked
And notice it's my trap
I turn to a blank page
And worry about the next phase
There's few friends you can lean on
And you don't have to be strong
This obsession with connection is killing us slow
There's nothing to gain and nowhere to go
And there's no way to tell other than in the flesh
Who the real person is and how they rank in the contest
And if you look inside then you probably know
If you think too much then you're labelled as slow
What's the point of talking
If you can't say what you mean
When you dance around the issue it will show
You'll never get the perfect thought
The inner search is unworldly
But if you practice long and hard
It won't be so unnerving

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Reason as a compositional tool

I am becoming more confident in my abilities on the piano and now find myself composing on it as the instrument that the composition will be performed on. It think it is also useful for me to seperate the process of scoring the individuals parts for ensemble works seperate to this piano composition phase.

I have spent the last few nights composing on a MIDI keyboard hooked up to Reason. I have just been hitting record and playing for the whole 40 minutes, improvising and experimenting with different note combinations, and being free to leave decisions about what is worth keeping until some later point. There is still a lot of conscious effort being put in during this time trying to find the best ways to put notes together, and the beauty of recording everything is that I will get a chance to hear more of the unconscious playing when I listen to it.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Composition Diary Mk II

After months of not posting, I have decided to reevaluate my goals and start composing regularly again. Given my reasons for creating this blog, I can understand how the lack of entries appeared as a sign of me abandoning composing altogether; however, this was not the case. It was more my attitude towards composing that changed during this time. I became too concerned with achieving the end result and lost sight of why I commited to doing 40 mins of composing a day in the first place.

The main problem was trying to sequence the ideas I already had into a bigger piece. I became very frustrated when the individual sections didn't join smoothly and ended up dreading the whole composition process because of this! It is very easy to become uninspired trying to work through a composition from start to finish. Your unconscious mind does not work like that. The whole point of the 40 mins is to give the compositional part of the brain a workout and to train it to generate states of flow and inspiration automatically. It is a time to get as many ideas down as possible without thinking about whether or not they're up to scratch. Chances are they are all up to scratch. You should thank your critical mind for all the fantastic unique work it has helped you create in the past and ask it to find new ways to help you that are less negatively stressful during any creative process.

I am now looking forward to composing often and approaching it with a sense of fun and adventure, integrating all aspects of my life (=learning) and noticing the states of inspiration as they come more frequently with practice.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Mahler 1 – The Odyssey Begins (Review)

Markus Eiche, Vladimir Ashkenazy and Sydney Symphony Orchestra
Sydney Opera House Concert Hall
Wed 10, Fri 12, Sat 13 February 2010 8pm
Thu 11 February 2010 1.30pm


Vladimir Ashkenazy and the Sydney Symphony Orchestra began The Mahler Odyssey 2010-11 with a programme revolving around Mahler’s First Symphony. I attended both the Thursday afternoon and Saturday evening concerts, sitting in the front circle during the former and the mid stalls during the latter.


The programme began with Richard Strauss’ symphonic poem, Don Juan. Strauss and Mahler were friends as well as rivals, and Don Juan was premiered just weeks apart from Mahler’s First Symphony in 1889. At this time and throughout most of Mahler’s life, his compositions were considered controversial while Strauss’ received adulation and success.

The performance by the orchestra was energetic and slick, with athletic strings and wind, heroic brass and a general sense of the grandeur of the Romantic era. Boisterous climaxes were interlaced with more subdued, intimate affairs and themes were combined and transformed throughout before an unexpected sparse, quiet ending in the minor key. This is the Don Juan that looks for total love and fails to find it, in contrast to Albert Camus’ idea that Don Juan loves each woman with the same passion and becomes dependent on that repetition.

Mahler’s Blumine movement, which he dropped from his First Symphony, was performed next in the programme. Upon hearing the first performance I regarded the work as short and pretty, and it seemed obvious that it did not fit with the rest of the symphony. At the Saturday performance, I was imagining what this simple, uncomplicated serenade would sound like in the first half of the symphony, between the first and second movements. The possibilities for development and expansion of the movement’s material were evident, particularly in sections like the dual between oboe and double basses.

The first violinists moved their seats back to make way for baritone Markus Eiche in preparation for the next part of the programme, Mahler’s Lieder eines fahrenden Gesellen (Songs of a Wayfarer). The four-movement song cycle, composed 1883-5 contains many themes that also appear in Symphony No. 1. For instance, in the opening bars of the first song, Wenn mein Schatz Hochzeit macht (On my sweetheart’s wedding day) Mahler achieves a ‘cuckoo’-like call through the interval of a descending fourth in the clarinet that reoccurs in various pitches, rhythms and timbres throughout the four movements of the song cycle and the entire First Symphony.

The orchestration and interplay between instruments and voice were quite striking in this song, especially where the voice and pianissimo string accompaniment were interrupted by the clarinet ‘cuckoo’-like calls in the first verse in D minor. Eiche’s low and midrange tones were crisp, but a little too much pharynx resonance was apparent at times. For instance, on the highly expressive line “Hab’ich meinen traurigen Tag!” (It will be a sad day for me!), his high notes sounded squashed, lacking the warmth and clarity from his lower registers.

The contrast of the second verse in Eb major was well delivered, with lighter and more animated woodwinds complimenting the interaction between the solo violin and flowing vocal line. The point of the climax at the end of this verse could be said to serve as a simple, yet powerful initiation into Mahler’s world. That is, the point where the Wayfarer pleads with nature to never cease its eternal cycle of flowers blooming and birds singing, before he returns to his solitary world of resignation and agony in the third verse in D minor.

Eiche beautifully portrayed the return of the nature-loving Wayfarer in the second song, Ging heut’ morgen übers Feld (I went out this morning into the fields). The main melody in D major – that would be heard again after interval as the primary theme in the first movement of Mahler’s First Symphony – was handled superbly by Eiche, who maintained tonal depth and clear diction over the lightest and most bouncy passages. For the comparatively sombre final verse in B major, Eiche demonstrated a clear and consistent pianissimo sob that was particularly moving, especially on the final line “Nein, nein, das ich mein’, Mir nimmer blühen kann!” (No, no, that happiness can never bloom for me!).

After all these vacillations between the beauty of nature and personal angst, the orchestra broke out in a stormy fortissimo D minor for the third song, Ich hab’ ein glühend Messer (I have a red-hot knife). From the front circle of the Sydney Opera House concert hall it sounded like Eiche was being overpowered by the orchestra at times, an effect that may have been intentional given that it is the Wayfarer who is the victim in this violent outburst.

The fourth and final song, Die zwei blauen Augen (The two blue eyes) contained a theme that not only would be heard after interval in the third movement of Mahler’s First Symphony, but in every single concert of the Sydney Symphony 2010-11 Mahler Odyssey: the funeral march. Leonard Bernstein pointed out in his 1984 television essay The Little Drummer Boy that Mahler was obsessed with death to the point that he included a funeral march in every single major work. The effect of the orchestra’s and Eiche’s performance of this quiet and minimal song, with its subtle chromatic variations and changing meter was hypnotic. It left an unsettling feeling that was strong enough to draw attention away from the anxious anticipation of the main event after interval.

The beginning of the First Symphony, with its bare opening consisting of the note A spread over seven octaves, could have easily been confused with the orchestra tuning up! The sustained notes continued in a meditative hum, as several of the symphony’s main themes were slowly introduced: the ‘cuckoo’-like call, fanfares (played by trumpets offstage) and a chromatic bass motif. As the cuckoo calls became more frequent and the trumpet players tiptoed onstage, it suddenly became apparent that the cuckoo motif was really a preparation for the main melody from the second Wayfarer song, Ging heut’ morgen übers Feld.

Vladimir Ashkenazy was very delicate in his interpretation of Mahler’s symphonic treatment of the song, especially during the exposition where the melodies from the first verse are reintroduced and a gradual, but steady increase in tempo is required. He managed to hold back and not get too carried away with the short, but momentous crescendo/decrescendo, so that the simultaneous presentation of the first and third verse material in the next section was truly a celebration.

The development section was played steadily, enabling one to become immersed in the variations of the main motifs and the process of the song’s various melodic fragments conjoining in different shapes. It also made one more deeply aware of Mahler’s use of suspense, not only as a way of playing with the listener’s expectations, but also as a way of making the most out of structural landmarks like the recapitulation and ending.

The main section of the second movement was a lot of fun to watch and hear, as the synchronised bowing movements of the string section made the music even more visceral. It was also clear from the smiles on the player’s faces how much they enjoyed this part. The movement as a whole is an appropriation of Mahler’s 1880-1 song, Hans und Grethe. The trio section contains a sublime symphonic treatment of the song’s melodic material which comes across as a reverie, like an imagining of the song itself in the midst of the jaunty outer sections.

The third and fourth movements were a major contrast to the first two, with the humour becoming darker and the nature motifs turning into something more demonic. The third movement contained the children’s round Frère Jacques played by the gloomiest instruments of the orchestra in the minor mode and at a funeral march tempo. After having recourse to the fourth Wayfarer song and returning to the mock funeral march, one got the feeling of being under some sort of murky spell as the movement wound to a close.

An extremely loud cymbal crash shocked everyone back into consciousness at the beginning of the fourth and final movement, as the orchestra launched into an inferno of wild strings and demonic fanfares. The beginning of this movement was so raucous that some audience members had to leave. This is music that was completed in 1899 – over a decade before Stravinsky’s infamous Rite of Spring – and it can still be considered violent over a century later.

Well and truly initiated with Mahler’s dualities by this point in the concert, the listener could understand how all this violence could lead into a cantabile sentimental passage for strings and horns, complete with woodwind calls, chromatic wanderings and lots of rubato. The themes introduced at the very beginning of the symphony were heard in many different forms as the stormy/sentimental duality continued, and the expectations of the audience were violated as certain sections seemed to be abandoned prematurely, creating tensions that needed to accumulate for the life-changing release at the end.

There was a great feeling of unification and universality at both concerts during the applause after the conclusion of the symphony’s last movement. It was as if the liberation I felt was what everyone else felt as well, like a giant wave of energy that allowed us to walk out of the concert hall on air together just for a few moments before returning to our own individual lives. While all parts of the programme were engaging having experienced them all once on Thursday, I was mostly excited about hearing the symphony itself again before Saturday’s concert and afterwards, as well. The rest of the Mahler concerts played by Sydney Symphony are sure to be monumental events and 2010-11 will be a special time in Sydney’s musical history.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Pro Tools as a compositional tool

I worked on my arrangement of Theatre of Cruelty tonight using Pro Tools. I wanted to feel that step closer to the finished product in composing for this project - being able to hear the arrangements straight after I think of them. So far I have recorded three electric guitar parts and an electric bass part for the intro. My main reaction to what I heard was that it would be better suited to strings. I am going to continue these composing sessions recording in Pro Tools, because I feel like I will benefit a lot from this process, especially seeing as it requires me to actually execute parts written for other instruments on the guitar.